human + vampire = TWILIGHT

esok nak tengok TWILIGHT !
errr. tak sabar.
will hangout with afiqah, her sis and maybe suf. lame tak jumpe suf !



will be updating again soon
;)

aish, buang tenaga je.

ok, it just 7.40 in the morning and yes, i'm awake. i know its early. thanks to the plan that have been changed just now. i'm supposed to hangout with my friends at the mall today, but not now lah. mall bkk lambat lg kan. and my plan is like this, ikut abah pergi kerja, pastu suruh tinggal kat office dia cause die ade hal hari ni. and bile pas zohor (yes, pas zohor br gi mall ) baru i jalan kaki pegi mall because office abah dekat je ngan megamall.

then, dgn bersemangatnya, i pun wake up and went to shower. dah siap-siap ni pastu abah tanya, pukul brape janji ngan kawan. and i said pas zohor. then abah kata, laa pas zohor abah amik lah kat rumah mase nak hantar aca kat rumah ( aca-real name, natasha- is my lil sis-sekolah lg hari ni, kafa )

and i was like, lerr buang tenaga je bgn awal-awal. igt ke abah busy hari ni. and now i'm blogging to spend my morning time beneficially. HAHA.

so NOT. i nak sambung tidur balik. dah lah smlm tidur pukul 3 lebih. ok i'm better off now. hope mimpi AA lagi.

haha. eh 54F, hari tu sy mimpi AA ! haha, gemgilsaam ! pastu tak pasal-pasal diddy pun ada dlm mimpi tu. dia geng skali ngan AA. haha. seronok betul ! agagagag Bahahahaaa

there goes all the dusts and rubbish

woo,
at last, my room yang selerak gile nak mampos , kemas jugak ! ok bkn completely kemas lah, tapi tk selerak lah. haha. now surely it looks like a room than before which seems like tempat pelupusan sampah or worst? haha. just me n my family know how my room look like before. haha. afiqah pon penah tegur dulu, bilik selerak mase webcamming (haha, ade ke word ni?). so now, baru lah boleh ajak kawan2 sleepover kat rumah. ;)

no more clothes, bags, tissues etc etc on the floor, it's CLEAN && CLEAR. haha. bagos nadiah bagos. good job ! me love u even more. haha *mereng

hope that my room will keep clean and tidy for at least a week. selalu je kemas, then after 2 or 3 days, selerak balik. hehe.

*memalukan diri betul tulis pasal ni. tak pelah, sayang pulak nak delete. post jelah.

something to cure my boredom ;)

Have you ever licked the back of a CD to try to get it to work?::
yucks

Ever been in a car wreck?::
what do you think i am?

Were you popular in high school?::
so NOT

Have you ever been on a blind date?::
nope.

Are looks important?::
sometimes.

Do you have any friends that you've known for 10 years or more??::
idk.

By what age would you like to be married?::
i dont want to get married. HAHA

Does the number of people a person's slept with affect your view of them?::
oc !

Have you ever made a mistake?::
who doesnt?

Are you a good tipper?::
not really.

What's the most you have spent for a haircut?::
idk. my mom paid for it.

Have you ever had a crush on a teacher?::
haha. no.

Have you ever peed in public?::
seriously NO.

What song do you want played at your funeral?::
fall to pieces by avril ;) no no. hurm. ala ape ntah tajok lagu nasyid ni. ala yg 'bila izrail dtg memanggil, jasad terbujur di pembaringan, la la la' ( betol ke lirik die? )

Would you tell your parents if you were gay?::
absolutely NO. wait, hurm idk.

If you had to pick one person on earth to die, who?::
can i pick more?

Do you have any phobias?::
i think no.

What are your plans for the future?::
hurm, havent think that far. haha

Do you walk around the house naked?::
no. HAHA astarfighullah.

If you were an animal what would you be?::
tiger ! roar!

Hair color you like on someone you're dating?::
blonde? haha

Would you rather be blind or deaf?::
i dont want both.

What do you do as soon as you walk in the house?::
straights to my room.

Do you like horror or comedy?::
both.

Are you missing anyone?::
my besties. beta merindui kamu!

Where do you want to live when you are old?::
in the shopping mall. haha. stupid.

Who is the person you can count on the most?::
my besties ;)

If you could date any celebrity past or present, who would it be?::
all of them. one celebrity per day. ;)

What did you dream last night?::
nothing. tidur mati.

Are you named after anyone?::
idk.

Do you sing in the shower?::
hell yeah. hari-hari kot..

Have you ever been arrested?::
nope. i'm a good girl. really really good ;)

What is your favorite Holiday?::
hari raya ;)

Would you ever get plastic surgery?::
no! i'm original, fresh from the oven. HAHA. *ignore me

Have you ever caught a fish?::
yes, its fun ! fun !

gimme S-E-K-O-L-A-H !

nak update.
tapi tak tahu nak tulis ape.
so,
esok jelah update.
tu pun kalau ade bende nak cite ok?

btw,
cuti sekolah memang membosankan.

MAHU SEKOLAH !
RINDU SAMA KAWAN2 !
sob, sob.

tentang saya

Kita harus menghargai bahasa ibunda kita. Oleh itu, saya ingin menggunakan bahasa malaysia baku bagi pos pada kali ini.


Saya seorang perempuan berumur 15 tahun. Saya seorang yang pemalu kadang-kadang tetapi kebanyakan masanya, saya sangat riuh dan kecoh. Saya pelajar lepasan PMR di sekolah yang agak bosan tetapi menarik. Saya dilahirkan di Kuantan tetapi ketika berusia 1 tahun, keluarga saya berpindah ke Johor Bahru. Di sana saya bersekolah di sekolah yang muridnya semuanya perempuan. Saya sayang akan sekolah itu. Malangnya, pada usia 11 tahun, saya berpindah ke Kuantan semula. Bukannya saya tidak menyukai Kuantan, tetapi saya lebih gembira dan menyukai Johor Bahru. Mungkin kerana saya dibesarkan di sana dan lebih selesa di sana.

Saya mempunyai satu tabiat iaitu kuat tidur, terutamanya ketika bosan. Saya tak tahu saya mendapat genetik ini dari siapa. Walaubagaimanapun, abang saya lagi kuat tidur berbanding saya. Dahulu, dia pernah tidur di sekolah sehingga pukul 4 dan 6 petang. Oleh itu, dia harus melompat turun dari bloknya memandangkan blok sudah dikunci. Adakah saya terlupa memberitahu bahawa keluarga saya sedikit lain daripada yang lain? Agak pelik, tetapi tidak lah pelik gila.

Saya merupakan seorang yang riang, ceria dan selalu tersenyum. Saya sangat gembira mempunyai kawan-kawan yang sangat girang juga. Oleh itu, kami sentiasa bergelak ketawa bersama-sama. Oh ya, sebelum terlupa. Ya, apabila kegilaan muncul, perangai sedikit keterlaluan bakal tertonjol tanpa diduga. Maaf di atas perangai itu. Saya akan cuba untuk menghapuskannya jika ia bertambah menjadi-jadi. Apabila saya berada dalam keadaan monyok atau berdiam diri, mungkin saya dalam keadaan sedih atau dengan erti kata lain, emosi tidak stabil. Tetapi selalunya, ia jarang berlaku kecuali sekiranya saya betul-betul sedih.

Saya tidak mempunyai teman lelaki dan tidak pernah ada satu pun semenjak saya hidup di atas muka bumi ini. Kenapa? Mungkin kerana saya tidak suka akan hubungan seperti ini dan lebih gembira hidup tanpa teman lelaki kerana lebih bebas? Ataupun tidak ada yang suka pada saya? Ataupun tidak ada yang berkenan di hati? Ataupun saya terlalu muda untuk mempunyai hubungan sebegitu? Hanya saya ada jawapannya dan kamu tidak perlu tahu. Dan saya tahu kamu tidak mahu mengambil tahu pun, bukan? Suka pada seseorang itu adalah satu lumrah. Saya pernah menyukai seseorang tetapi malangnya, dia seorang yang tidak begitu baik dan tidak jujur. Oleh itu, saya mengambil keputusan untuk tidak menyukainya lagi.

Saya hidup dalam satu keluarga yang agak sibuk. Ma selalu tiada di rumah kerana menghadiri kursus, mesyuarat dan sebagainya. Abah jarang tiada di rumah memandangkan dia bekerja sendiri. Kadang-kadang hidup saya lebih di luar berbanding di rumah. Hal ini kerana, setelah pulang dari sekolah, selalunya abah akan membawa saya makan dan duduk di pejabatnya sehingga pukul 5 lebih. Kemudian, kami akan mengambil adik di masjid dan baru pulang ke rumah. Selalunya pukul 6 lebih baru kami tiba di rumah. Oleh itu, hidup saya bermula di luar pada pukul 7 pagi sehingga pukul 6 lebih petang. Memanglah penat begini, tetapi kadang-kadang kalau duduk di rumah sahaja, bosan juga, bukan?


Saya rasa saya sudah banyak sangat berceloteh tentang diri saya. Saya tahu kamu bosan membacanya kerana kamu tidak mahu mengetahui pun tentang ini. Tidak mengapalah, saya berhenti menaip di sini sahaja. Maaf di atas kebosanan membaca pos ini. Saya tidak mempunyai sebarang tajuk yang menarik untuk ditulis. jadi, saya hanya menaip apa yang muncul dari akal fikiran. Terima kasih kerana meluangkan masa membaca blog saya yang tidak berapa menarik ini.

she'll never come back again

its hardly for me to write and talk about it right now. but i'll try with all my strength that i have.

yes, she's gone and will never come back again. it is my first time to see dead body live in front of my two eyes. it's my grandma. she passed away because of stroke. when my dad fetched me at school, he said that my grandma was in a serious condition and we have to go to the village right now. when we arrived at our house to pack our bags, we got a called from my grandpa. he told that grandma is gone. she's GONE! FOREVER. and we didnt made it to see she's alive for the last time.

i hold my tears. but i cant hold it any longer. then, my face was full with my tears. i try not to cry loud because i dont want to disturb him driving. i know he was really really sad. who dont? its his mom, the person that gave birth to him has gone. i can see his eyes gone all red. i know he is holding his tears inside. my mom keep on crying and keep on saying kesian mak, kesian mak, kesian mak.

when we arrived at my grandparents house, i could feel the sadness all over the house. i saw people reciting doa, reading yassin and crying. i could see my grandma's body lying on the bed. she was soooo thin ! it's really different from before. i kissed her, it's cold. her cheeks are cold ! and once again, i couldnt hold my tears. if i'm not mistaken, the last time i met her was about 2 weeks ago. that time, she's lying on the bed with the water tube inside her nose.

the funeral was held on the next day since the penggali kubur tengah cuti the day when my grandma passed away -_- . the process went smoothly. i just watched all the mak ciks prepared the kain kapan and stuff. i saw they wrapped my grandma's dead body with kain kapan. after that, all her children, grandchildren and relatives kissed her for the last time. it was very sad to see that and many people were crying including me. how i wish my grandma is still alive. i miss her so much.

then, her body was brought to the grave on the hill. they put the body slowly in the place. i witnessed it. i'm so pity of my grandma. i know she will go to the different place. the place where she will been asked by malaikat on the things that she did on the Earth. i cried again, it was very sad ! they buried her and put a pice of wood that have been carved like batu nisan. maybe the real batu nisan belum siap. we pour the water and petals of flowers on her grave right after reciting the doa. i know, when the last person had walked 7 steps away from the grave, malaikat will come to my grandma and do the duty of asking all that stuff. kesian tok ! =(

when we come back from the grave, we entered the house and its like something was gone. i take a peek at my grandparents' room. i know, i misses her. i look at the bed, the cupboard and all, luckily, i can hold my tears. then, me, cousins, mom, aunts and uncle took the photo album and see the pictures. my grandma was really beautiful when she was young. its kinda sad and happy to see those pictures. its sorta pengubat rindu to see those old pictures. my grandpa was like really blurr. my aunt told me that when my grandma sicked, he cannot sleep. penah berape kali, pukul 4 lebih, pusing-pusing taman and basuh kereta so that, boleh tidur. he already took the pli tidur tapi still cant fall asleep. kesian dia!

omg! i know, you knew how much i missed her.

ya Allah yang maha besar, golongkan arwah dalan kalangan orang yang masuk syurga. rahmatilah roh arwah, semoga arwah sentiasa dalam keadaan aman dan tenang di sana. ampunkanlah segala dosa-dosa arwah dan ringankan lah hukuman ke atas nya.

al-fatihah,

amin.

tarih meninggal : 11.11.08
masa meninggal : 2.50 pm
tarikh pengebumian : 12.11.08
sebab meninggal : angin ahmar
usia meninggal : 74 tahun

p/s : tok, i miss you so much ! <3>