missing kuantan. badly

seriously, hari ni boring giler nak mampos. tak de mood nak study. n tak de mood nak buat pape pon. omg! rindu giler giler kat kuantan. lame dah tak balik. rindu nak hangout ngan kawan n tengok movies. ala. lambat giler lagi kot nak balik. ish.

i'm just

PLAIN STUPID

this is what i feel right now.
i think i'm being such a stupid person yester-years.
can time move backwards so that i can fix all things i've done before?
i always wish 080808 didnt really work that way.
if not, i would be pretty happy right now.



p/s: trust me, if you're in my shoes, u'll understand what i feel n u would probably think that u're STUPID fullstop :|

macam kuman

Dunia ni kecil, kan?

what can i say more?

You Are Totally Addicted to Gossip

You love gossip - even when it's about you. You're up on the latest news about your friends and celebrities. In fact, people know to turn to you when they need the scoop. You don't feel bad about dishing the dirt. If you don't want to be talked about - don't live it!

saya tak tahu malu

so, i akan announce my mid year result

4A 2B 2C 1G

1A - pai
2A - bm, english, math mode
4B - sej, physics
5C - bio, chem
1G - tak yah bitau lah, mesti korang dh dpt agak. HAHA

i improved! dulu 2A n 3 failed. now 4A n 1 failed only. ok lah tu kan?

ranking pulak,

dulu - 86/111
now - 51/111

actually, i boleh tinggi lagi ranking tapi sebab i failed add math n add math tu adelah pemberat utk ranking tu. so, ade orang yg dpt sikit A but add math tak failed, get higher ranking than me. tapi tak pelah at least ade improvement kan?

nak tahu apa yang i rase?

life makin complicated kan? the more we think about it, rase macam nak give up macam tu je. tapi tak boleh. sekarang, life kat hostel much better. i think i dah jadi my old nadiahbs, nadiah macam kat smart dulu. kuat ketawa, kuat tido, kuat mengarot n kuat ronggeng. tapi kat sekolah yg kecik ni which is sbp yg terkecik kat malaysia ni, kat mane je kan nak ronggeng setakat pergi merayap dari kelas ke kelas. tapi kire ok lah kan, at least dapat melepaskan gian nk ronggeng. tadi duduk dalam bus almost 4 hours, banyak bende yang i fikir besides tido about 3 hours. suddenly, i jadi agak emo. hehe. tadi i terfikir pasal how my life would be kalau i still smartian? n camne i nak survive 2 tahun kat hostel? n camne kalau i dah bersusah payah stay hostel n sacrifice banyak n suddenly tak dapat ape yg i nak? n semua kenangan kat smart, hangout ngan kawan n banyak lagi lah. kadang-kadang rase macam 'haih, kenapelah kite lepaskan camtu je hidup dulu, i mean, i dah happy giler with m life n suddenly i tukar my hala tuju whatsoever'. tapi n then, i terfikir, 'takpelah, its a good thing, though. belum cuba belum tahu kan?' so, now. i rase macam lega tapi tak tau kenape. maybe sebab i think yang i dah buat the right decision kot. hostel tu kira ok lah. not that bad cume sometime kite rase macam tinggal dalam hell. kat sini ape ape pon, friendship yang penting. sebab mane- mane je kite pergi or pape jek yang kite buat, mesti ngan kawan or melibatkan kawan. so, friends lah yang buat kite happy and sedih at the same time. tapi biaselah kan. name pon LIFE kan.kalau semuanye berjalan ngan smooth, boring lah kan. mesti ade naek n turun n now, i akan hargai n hadapi every single thing tu sebaik-baiknye. aceehh. haha. tapi kan seriously, kalau stay kat hostel, korang akan learn to do things all by yourselves. susah mane pon, kite still akan try harder n harder. baguslah macam tu kan. tak sangke dah nak dekat 5 bulan i stay kat hostel. well done, nadiah! well done ;) so, i hope i akan survive sampai spm next year kat sekolah tu. pray for me.

conscience says,

nadiah!
stop whining around and get your ass off this computer.
shut down the computer and get yourself ready to do what you should do, you little stubborn lazy girl.



nadiah : aye aye captain :