fathia's talking

tiya talked about me in her blog ;)
baca lah.

nadiah baharum shah

changing?

i guess i need something new in my life.
changes perhaps?
although i absolutely hate changes, but i do think i need it somehow. but the fact is, i actually have no idea what changes i need. *sigh*

do you think you know what i need?

finish line

tired of chasing
i think i'll stop running
will just stand here
and watch it happens from far

gong xi fa cai

thank god there's chinese new year holidays. so, i'm home!

it's always feel good to be home. after few weeks at the hostel in terengganu, i felt some kind of like relieved being able to touch my feet in kuantan. ;)

its been quite a long time since i didnt update my blog. blog sorry for abandoned you. i'm just too busy with school. i'll try to update more frequent ok.

my schedule is extremely packed n full.

• last two weeks, i was busy with sukantara n TOV test (which i done it very poorly n idiotly).

• for this CNY hols, have to buy n plan for the house mascot stuff n the marching team. not to forget, the elaso jumbo sale.

• then on 25th feb, the sports day will be held n i might be busy participating in some events n elaso tiny stall thing with elaso members.

• on march, i will going to kota kinabalu for an expedition, which is clashed with my HK basketball match which i already trained everyday from last year. i need to choose either one. n although i love basketball, i think i have to choose for kota kinabalu since i already paid for it.

• then, it would be the jumbo sale n the olahraga daerah.

there's a lot more coming to kill me slowly. i'm tired and lack of rest. heavy eyelids become my curent bestfriend n panda eyes cant stop circling my eyes.

seventeen

yeah i'm turning 17. n that means i'm one year older n mature. haha. matured ke? :D

not a poetry

i just tried some luck n wrote a poem for the english poem competition. actually i didnt have the intention to win. just doing it to get myself a certificate. international certificate if i'm not mistaken. cause the competition had to do with the itali government. idont really know about the whole competition thingy. i just wrote it n submitted it to the teacher. i was so shocked on how many students submitted their poems to the teachers. i thought it would just be like 10 or so. but it was like more than 30 people i guess.

i'm not the world best poetry n what the hell, i'm not even a poetry. haha. so mine is not that good. the theme for the poem is shadow or light. and it had to do with metapher of life yadda yadda yadda.



title : Rebellious Shadow


I live in the darkness,
stuck in a low self-esteem box,
a steel box with a huge padlock,
I'm the one that is trapped in it,
I'm the shadow of myself.
Nevertheless,
I'm also the key to the padlock,
I own the ability to set the shadow free,
to make a hole on it,
the urge to change is rebelling,
the virus of transformation has spread,
its particles flow out of control.
The time has come,
to let some light in,
bleaching the colour of shadow,
and reveal the origin pattern of me.



hehe i said earlier, i aint good

two weeks of schooling recap

i'm home. but just for a couple of days. i need to go back to hostel on saturday. this last couple of weeks was sure a hell of busy weeks. tons of homeworks everyday n not to mention extra classes in the evening. haih. i'm getting tired everyday for the non-stop used up of energy. guess what, teacher gave gazillions of add math homework for us to be done this weekend n need to pass it up on next week. wth. it was like more than 60 questions! just imagine how am i gonna crack my head doing all the equation? if i own an einstein brain, it wont be any matter but the fact is, i'm not. so let the teacher scream her lungs out to me during our next add math class with her. i'm ready with the earplugs. haha

i also busy with everyday basketball training bcause the game is in february, so we have no much time. i really need to improve on my basic n skills. i think this year i'm gonna take it slow in sports. i dont want to participate too many like yester-years cause i dont want to miss too much classes. i think i want to let go on netball n handball. n i might be just participate in basketball, olahraga n hockey. too much too handle. plus the tiredness that burden me like i was carrying a bag full of big stones on my back. sometimes i felt like laying on the street when i;m walking due to the tiredness haha.

oh, my 2010 room. i got the room that i least want it. you know why? because my room is directly in front of the boys hostels. haish. i kind of felt uneasy n uncomfortable whenever i wanted to go to take a shower. cause i need to cover my aurat n cannot just wear a towel to cover my body since got some stupid boys who will take a look at our room when the walk by their block corridors. n what worst is, sometimes they purposely stand at the corridor facing our room n wait to see us whenever we get out of the room. very annoying aite? got one time when my roomate forgot that our room is facing the boys hostel n she dried up her bra in front of our room n got some stupid boys made fun of it cause they could see it from their corridor. haha

i'm very happy n proud of myself since i didnt sleep in class as much as i did last year. i hope that i can keep up with my new less-sleep-in-class mission. haha