ipoh mali, ipoh ipoh mali

after 5 freaking weeks in school, i am finally home. to be home is surely a good thing but the non-stop ticking clock makes me nervous. i have just a month before the big exam. haih. seriously, i havent fully prepared yet. lots of topics that i havent cover yet plus the history facts that need to memorize.

apart from that, i think school has been great all this while. i'm kinda feel super happy and love staying in hostel. its a great thing to experience all those things that you surely wont feel it if you're not a hostel-lite. sometimes whenever i think of how muct time left for me to wear school uniform, gives a melancholic feel. i cant wait to be out of school but at the same time, i still want to be called a high school student.

the most important thing about this entry is, NO MORE DRAMA QUEEN in my school anymore. she had been expelled from the school due to some cases. most of the students feel relieved for that and said that she really deserved it. i dont want to talk much about her but seriously young lady, why should you make up lots of non-fact stories about yourself and your life. you lied to like gazillion people with gazillion lies. haish. is it bad to just be yourself?

dah la, dont want to talk much about it.


p/s : off to ipoh till sunday. ;) gonna skip school for 2 days!

ohh snapp !

back-to-hostel alarm call !

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and lastly *drum roll please* THE NORMAL ME haha

*haha sorry fr wasting ur time reading this post*

five for fighting reunion

minus cik husni and sipon. :((

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red flame

why it seems so hard to forget something that we really NEED to forget? i mean, i've been trying like death just to forget certain things that keep on hurting me inside out but still it reminded me more about it. i'm so tired of keep telling to myself that i'm cool and fine but whattheheck i'm not. haish. i really pissed off with myself. why is it so hard to forget that damn thing and just put a real genuine smile? i thought that i have enough strength to break the thin delicate glass off my chest but no, it still cant. of all the gazillionth time i tried, it just like a waste of time. i didnt mind if the bad things that i tried to pull off my chest didnt even hurt me, but the fact is it's killing me inside and it really hard to ignore. i know that sometimes we have to deal with all those bad things which supposedly to make us be stronger to live life ahead but can you just give me a manual on how to deal with life cause for the sake of want to feel the wonderful of life, i desperately need em right now. anyone? hand me your manual please. *sigh*

the feel of insecure towards myself and everything around me really bother me. big time. its not that i want to make fuss over my life and tell everyone how sucks my life had been all this while or being i-am-the-only-person-in-this-fucking-world-who-is-full-of-problems-and-let-me-committed-suicide thingy. how can i put this thing right? hurm. ok. my life had been upside down all this while and i had already tidy up my life a lil bit but it seems like it start to mess up again. i'm tired and exhausted and do i need to mention it thousands time that i'm sicked of it? no, its not premenstrual syndrome etc, its me letting out what i've been gripping so hard in my chest that i' afraid that it would burst if i keep on hidden em.

ok, lets put this thing to a stop. in the name of god, i hope that my life would be much better and less suffocated living in this hella world. i wish to live life like no one can ever proclaimed that i'm a loser or a bitch. i hope that no one will ever messing up with my life cause i'm living in my own life and anyone who tends to do so, please forget your intention. and i say this with a straight strict face. please, *with puppy eyes* stop treating me like a voodoo doll who can be hurt like no one would ever matter.



*thank you, fellas*

marang, terengganu

balik kampung early in the morning today. but i havent pack anything yet. so, just have to get ready to be scold by my mom later

. "ears, wear earplug please." haha

i think that i talk more craps nowadays. ohh btw, scratch that ear thingy craps if u didnt think its funny haha.

*nadiah's conscience negotiating* haha
=.=

dah dah.

anyway,
SELAMAT HARI RAYA, MUSLIMS :)