Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Saturday, September 19, 2009

syawal menjelma

for this entry, i wanted to wish all muslim on planet earth.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA


sorry kalau ade buat salah. n since i i kuat makan n selalu je pau makanan n minuman korang. halalkan la ek segale-gale nye.
HAHA

maaf zahir n batin.
kosong-kosong ok?

Friday, September 18, 2009

rase terhina part 2

since i couldnt get my mind off that thing. i was like trying to make the girl feel bad n wanted to show lah yang kitorang ni bengang n marah pasal tu. so, i pon ade lah tulis something on paper n stick it on my board class.

1st paper;

berhenti,
senyap,
usah mengeluarkan suara,
engkau tipu,
engkau tak tahu apa-apa,
andaian engkau salah.
kami bukan begitu,
kami tak sejahil itu.
engkau lain lah,
berpura-pura selalu,
bersembunyi di sebalik topeng.
lakonan engkau menjadi.
kesian mereka,
diperbodohkan kepalsuan engkau.

2nd paper;

sudah!
orang luar?
itu diskriminasi.
luaskan pemikiran engkau,
usah dibiarkan dalam kesempitan.
tak perlu mengusutkan kepala,
berhenti fikir keburukan kami,
kerana mungkin,
muka dan luaran kami,
tak sesuci dan sesopan engkau,
tetapi mugkin hakikat sebenar,
si jahil yang engkau fikirkan itu,
jauh lebih baik dalamannya.
kerana kami tak pernah,
menghina manusia sehina itu.

then, i asked my friend to pretend asking that girl about the papers i wrote. but of course without mentioning my name lah. but it seems like she didnt understand but she accused my friend of writing it. i used my own handwritng. i didnt fake it. but i have no idea why people dont even know that, that was my handwriting. ramai tanye my friend, whether she wrote it, but no one ask me. weird, huh? so, i wrote more. tak puas hati punye pasal.

3rd paper;

alamak,
masih tidak mengerti?
engkau tak ingat?
lupa apa yang engkau katakan?
aku dah serik,
dah kenal sangat,
segala lakonan engkau.
usah berpura-pura lagi,
engkau hanya kelihatan bodoh.
jika tidak memahami,
semua ini ditujukan kepada engkau.
oh,
pelakon wanita terhandal.

but still.
she didnt do anything. so my friends asked me to write it lagi tajam n macam straight to the point lah. so here it is

4th paper;

apalah engkau ni,
masih tidak memahami?
engkau yang bakal berjawatan.
engakau yang disukai ramai.
ya, engkau!
engkau yang mereka hormati.
oh, maaf.
kami sudah tidak hormat engkau lagi.
muka kami,
muka tak minat agama kah?
muka tak pernah baca quran kah?
engkau bukan pencatat pahala kami.
engkau tak tahu apa-apa.
engkau hanyalah,
perempuan kaki bodek.

i sengaja guna 'perempuan kaki bodek' bcos P.K.B. dia pon ade ckp lbh krg camni. "ustaz farid mcm dh anggap saya ni PKB la tahun depan". wth! i swear i dont want her to own any jawatan next year!

Saturday, September 12, 2009

rasa terhina

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sangat sangat terhina. of all the time, i stay kat hostel ni. yang ni lah paling terhina sekali i rase. is it really wrong to be 'orang luar'? or bukan terengganu or kelantan? is it really matter? kenape must you treat us like that? janganlah sempit sangat fikiran tu. ingat ke orang luar ni jahat sangat ke? jahil sangat ke? n u ingat orang bukan KL n pahang tu bagus n alim sangat ke? PUH-LIZ. now i dont know nak trust n respect siapa dah. ok lah. let me explain what this is all about.

adalah girl ni, who is my classmate. ok, die alim n baik n kireye i respect la die. oh wait. not anymore! i thought she's okay n not like any other people here. but NO. she's just the same. n could i say, even worse?!! since dia ni alim n warak, kitorang mcm kira sokong lah jugak kalu dia jadi our PKB next year. -PKB: penolong ketua badar *badan dakwah n rohaniah*-. tapi perception kitorang kt dia dah berubah since dia cakap 'ORANG LUAR NI MACAM X MINAT AGAMA JE' which dia tujukan kat us. my clique. WTH kan?! and the worst of all is die cakap. "Nadbs n syaza tu mcm x pernah baca quran je." WTFish with that? huh? although die mention 2 3 name budak from my geng but still rase terhina tau! HELL-O. mcm la engkau tu bagos sgt. perasan malaikat! x leh blah la org mcm ni. seriously, this girl kalau korang tgk,, nmpk punye la baik n ayu n korang x kan sangke punye lah yang die boleh ckp mcm tu. even i pon x sangke. die seems okay je ngan i. cerita ni pon i tau sbb my friend from or clique bitau. dia borak2 ngan girl tu n girl tu ckp mcm tu. bengong tahap naga, kan? n kawan i mase borak2 tu, ade lah ckp, yang die sokong kalau that girl jd PKBn guess what? girl tu ckp, "kalau saya jadi PKB, sape nk jadi PKR alfa?" something like that lah. -PKR: penolong ketua rumah- adoi. giler betol lah. igt ke engkau sorang ke layak jd PKB or PKR? puh-liz. kalau mcm ni lah,, u can kiss ur dreams goodbye! takde sape nak sokong engkau. shit-o

now, u guys know kan, what kind of people here in my boarding school? rase terhna giler, especially the quran part. takkan lah everytime nk bace quran kene pegi depan die or heboh2kan satu sekolah. this is incredibly unbeliavable.

i dont understand why this world got this kind of people yg narrow-minded n perasan bagos. this people, tak abis-abis nak cari kesalahan kitorang n nk jatuhkan kitorang. guys, get ur own life lah.

Monday, September 7, 2009

ABC

great, now i got time to blog. but guess what. here comes the stupid blog-block. so, haih. i have nothing on my mind to blog about.

chao.