Saturday, January 16, 2010


yeah i'm turning 17. n that means i'm one year older n mature. haha. matured ke? :D

Friday, January 15, 2010

not a poetry

i just tried some luck n wrote a poem for the english poem competition. actually i didnt have the intention to win. just doing it to get myself a certificate. international certificate if i'm not mistaken. cause the competition had to do with the itali government. idont really know about the whole competition thingy. i just wrote it n submitted it to the teacher. i was so shocked on how many students submitted their poems to the teachers. i thought it would just be like 10 or so. but it was like more than 30 people i guess.

i'm not the world best poetry n what the hell, i'm not even a poetry. haha. so mine is not that good. the theme for the poem is shadow or light. and it had to do with metapher of life yadda yadda yadda.

title : Rebellious Shadow

I live in the darkness,
stuck in a low self-esteem box,
a steel box with a huge padlock,
I'm the one that is trapped in it,
I'm the shadow of myself.
I'm also the key to the padlock,
I own the ability to set the shadow free,
to make a hole on it,
the urge to change is rebelling,
the virus of transformation has spread,
its particles flow out of control.
The time has come,
to let some light in,
bleaching the colour of shadow,
and reveal the origin pattern of me.

hehe i said earlier, i aint good

two weeks of schooling recap

i'm home. but just for a couple of days. i need to go back to hostel on saturday. this last couple of weeks was sure a hell of busy weeks. tons of homeworks everyday n not to mention extra classes in the evening. haih. i'm getting tired everyday for the non-stop used up of energy. guess what, teacher gave gazillions of add math homework for us to be done this weekend n need to pass it up on next week. wth. it was like more than 60 questions! just imagine how am i gonna crack my head doing all the equation? if i own an einstein brain, it wont be any matter but the fact is, i'm not. so let the teacher scream her lungs out to me during our next add math class with her. i'm ready with the earplugs. haha

i also busy with everyday basketball training bcause the game is in february, so we have no much time. i really need to improve on my basic n skills. i think this year i'm gonna take it slow in sports. i dont want to participate too many like yester-years cause i dont want to miss too much classes. i think i want to let go on netball n handball. n i might be just participate in basketball, olahraga n hockey. too much too handle. plus the tiredness that burden me like i was carrying a bag full of big stones on my back. sometimes i felt like laying on the street when i;m walking due to the tiredness haha.

oh, my 2010 room. i got the room that i least want it. you know why? because my room is directly in front of the boys hostels. haish. i kind of felt uneasy n uncomfortable whenever i wanted to go to take a shower. cause i need to cover my aurat n cannot just wear a towel to cover my body since got some stupid boys who will take a look at our room when the walk by their block corridors. n what worst is, sometimes they purposely stand at the corridor facing our room n wait to see us whenever we get out of the room. very annoying aite? got one time when my roomate forgot that our room is facing the boys hostel n she dried up her bra in front of our room n got some stupid boys made fun of it cause they could see it from their corridor. haha

i'm very happy n proud of myself since i didnt sleep in class as much as i did last year. i hope that i can keep up with my new less-sleep-in-class mission. haha

Sunday, January 10, 2010


i'm going to make this a really short post. nothing much to say actually. it just that i've been super busy with school & couldnt handle lots n lots of homework that were given by the teachers without a single slight of pity. now i feel dizzy due to the tiredness of 1st week of schooling.

p/s : i'll come home this thursday! ;)

Friday, January 1, 2010

one . one . two o one o

goodbye two double o nine
hello twenty ten

sumpah tak sangke. time flew fast kan? rasa macam baru je 2009 n now, hello 2010. ok i have ti admit yang azam 2009 memang sangat tak tercapai lagi. especially the part yang i said that i would study hard, less playing yadda yadda yadda. but look at me, i ended up like a total useless lazy girl yang surely tak insaf2. haish. why is it so hard for me to chage myself? konon azam je kuat, hasil tadak. haha. i'm sure 2010 akan sangat lain n much tougher. life is getting more complicated but i know that i need to stay strong. 2009 is such a roller coaster ride. i do break down sometimes although thousands of smile carved on my face. harap all the things that i've been through in 2009, akan jadi semangat n pengajaran for me.

sumpah 2009 ni agak tak best compared to tahun2 lain. t
you guys want to know why.
this is the reasons :
  • husna, bff ku pindah ke kelantan
  • 54f seperate, semua ke haluan masing-masing
  • i pindah sekolah asrama penuh
  • dicaci, dikutuk n segala nya yang sama kategorinya
  • permainan penuh tangisan berlaku
  • sumpah terlalu banyak drama n conflict
n lots lots more lah. tapi walau tak best i still tak ready lagi to mobe on to a new year. banyak lagi benda yang i'm supposed to do tapi tak buat lagi. that is so very frustrating.
tapi tipu giler la kan kalau cakap 2009 ni takde benda langsung yang best.ade jugak. tapi still not the best year la.

so thats it. happy new year to all my readers n followers. dah tua kan kite? anyway make 2010 the best year ever n enjoy every bit of it ;)