Friday, November 30, 2012

Re-fuel

It's Fridayyy !

Again.

Means, another week wasted, *pufff* just like that. It weird how I have no mood at all to study though before the semester break started, I had, well solemnly said that I'm going to study everyday for the whole semester break. I guess, I broke too much promises that I made to myself, didn't I? 

Hmmm. So, December is back. The last month of 2012. How shocking is that?!

2013 is coming. In shaa Allah.
And looking back to what I am right now, at the edge of 2012 and who I was back at the early of the year of 2012, there's a mix feeling filling me up. Well. Maybe I am pretty satisfy and happy as what I'm progressing and becoming in, or maybe I'm longing for more or something more superb, more to things like 'woahhhh wow wow', I might say. Like being a superwoman or something. Haha.

Well.

Yknow, that feeling. When you know you are running out of time. Less time you have than you have ever thought. Or even when something is running towards you, trying to catch you up, and you still at that position. Numb. Effortless. or maybe lost. In your own world that you have created, with some walls and shields between you and the outside world. Ahhh crap. Whatever. Hmmm, I just feel pretty useless lately. 

I waste too much time. 
And I regret.

And I keep on doing it again.
And I regret again.

Please.
Save me. From all these regrets.

Monday, November 26, 2012

Oh I'm in love !

Uuuulalaaaaa my very first red velvet cake !
Couldnt believe on how much I love baking. ;)

Taraaaaa ! ( Well, of course I google-d to look out for the recipe )





Tuesday, November 20, 2012

#Pray4Gaza


 

Because I was once, an ignorant.
And I don't wanna be that person anymore.

Sunday, November 18, 2012

Of GraciousHim and LazyMe


Allah had sent upon me THREE dreams of A-level exams in A WEEK. On how I didnt really prepared for the exams and how I came late to the exam room, TWICE ! And also how I became so blank and blur till I forgot to bring my stationary ! 

He wanted me to study and really get prepared for my examination. He wanted me to really struggle and strive for it. 

And look at me, still in my own lazy world. 

Nak pass ke tak woiiiii ?
Tiga mimpi dah cukup okay, Nadiahbs. 

Get your lazy ass off the laptop and start studying and please, focus. 
Please.


Saturday, November 17, 2012

Luckily. I haven't burnt the kitchen. Yet. Hahaha

Semester break started and since I got plenty of free time to be spend, I chose to learn to cook and bake ! Yeeehaaaa. Well, I'm not really a good cook, and this is my first time I'm being serious in learning how to cook, I guess it just the right time to know ( at least, couple of recipes ) how to fill up my tummy with my own cook. So, here's some pictures of what I've learnt so far. Thanks to the internet, I managed to google-d lots of good recipes. Heeeee ;)

Pardon the look of the food. It taste better than it looked. Hahahaha *perasan*


Oreo cheesecake. 
Glad that Iqa and Dina loved it. Well, I love it too, since cheesecake is my fave !

 
Puding Karamel.
Bahahahhaha. This one really look uglayyy. I guess, I'm not really good in making my food looks attractive for people to eat, isn't it. 

Stuffed tomatoes, with mozarella cheese.
Just made this one for lunch today ! Cheese cheese cheese and more cheese. 


Well, basically I love to cook anything related to cheese, because I'm just simply a cheese-freak, I guess. lololol. Will try to learn more recipes ! And hopefully, my food look and taste better next time. ;) 


xoxo, 
Chef Nadiahbs.
Hahahaha

Friday, November 16, 2012

3, 2, 1 ! Goodbye and Hello !

Assalamualaikum.

I hope it is still not too late to wish Salam Maal Hijrah to all Muslim out there. Indeed, time flies so fast. It's 1434 H already. A new year means, another year of struggling and another chance given for us to become a better person, a better Muslim. :)

Yesterday is history.
Today is presence.
And tomorrow is future.

Lets make yesterday a day to remember, treasure all the sweet memories and learn all the bad things and mistakes that we've done. It is okay to turn back, to stop by and to look upon what we have done in the past because as what quoted "Those who do not learn from the past, are doomed to repeat it". Yes, so sometimes it's better to recall them cause it could make us feel better, at least. Because make us realise that, we are still living in this world, are still given a chance to make things better and one thing for sure, will open our eyes that we are continuously changing, to the better or to the worst, it depends on us, on how to make it happened. Everybody changed. I also did changed, I guess. I was the one, who always afraid of changes. I never like the idea of having to change, having to adapt to a new surrounding, having to turn a new leaf and forget the old wrinkle ones. I hated those so much. But that was before. As I grew up, I know, sometimes something won't stick as how we wanted it to be, won't always stay the same and will gradually and eventually change. Well its' either getting worn out of overused or rusty of not ever being used. So, after so long, I'm getting clear that the idea of changing is not bad after all. Yet, changing is something we should try to achieve everyday and of course, it should be a good change. :)

Today, presence. The day we wake up to. And it is different to every person. To us, Malaysians, a morning awake would be the time for work, for school or even another day of semester break ( as for me hehe ), but some people out there, thousand kilometres away from us, is struggling, is hiding under a shattered house, is throwing pebbles towards their enemy, is crying after another death of their family members and is living without a sign whether they would make it to home or not when they step out of their hidden spots. And yes, people out there is Palestinians. Syrians. Our brothers. Our sisters. Yes, of course, we couldn't do much but at least, lets try to help them by making a du'a for every sujood that we made, for every jemaah that we attended and for every prayer that we ameen-ed. Thats all. At least we try, we know we have no power and strength to travel all the way to the Palestine and Syria to fight back, to provide a pair of helping hands, but little did we know, "Du'a is the most powerful weapon of a believer." So, insyaAllah by making du'a, our brothers and sisters out there will be protected and blessed by The Most Merciful. And we, here in a safer place, lets make each day as productive as we can, make full use of it. Live our life to the fullest. Work as if we're gonna live thousands of years more, and do ibadah as if we're gonna die tomorrow. InsyaAllah, all is well. :)

And tomorrow is future. Something that we can aim about, we can dream of, yet unpredictable. Everyone has a future, but how our future would be depends on us, once again. We can aim high, but if we do not struggle for it, we never try to strive for it, all is nothing. Yes, but do remember, if we already try our hardest up to our limit, and we didn't get what we should ( or we think we should ), then, never get too upset or give up on it, because Allah sees our effort, not the result. And sometimes, Allah on hold what He wanted to give to us, because He has something better and has His own agendas. So never questioned any of Allah's act upon us. "And it may be that you dislike a thing which is good for you and that you like a thing which is bad for you. Allah knows but you do not know." We are human, merely a human, know nothing, even we didn't know what's best for ourselves. So lets just try our hardest, struggle to make our day, our presence and our future as best as we could, and at the end of the day, lets Allah decide what's good for us. Shall we?

InsyaAllah. A reminder to myself too.

Oh, I already made a new resolutions for myself. Have you got yours? *winkwink*
Will post on my new resolutions soon. Heee :)

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Sand tickling off my feet

Just installed blogger apps on my phone ! And this is my first post via android.
Yesterday. Beach time with le girlz. Our usual hangout spot everytime I'm back in Kuantan.
Teluk Chempedak.
;)



Sunday, November 11, 2012

Of happy yet fear.

SEMESTER BREAK IS HERE !!!

Alhamdulillah, done with my super-hectic third semester ! Awesome ! Super excited and I really looking forward for such a loonggggggg break. But is it a good thing? Or a bad one? Well, I do happy, well more to ecstatic actually, to have this long break off from classes and college. Such a tiring and chaotic semester I've been through. Just like what I imagined after few of my seniors told me to be prepared mentally and physically for this third semester. All is within this short period of time ; IELTS, Parents-Lecturers Meeeting ( Uhuk uhukk ), loadzzzz of HACC's events, loadzzzzzzzz of topic tests and loadzzzzzzz of subjects to catch up. But one thing for sure, this semester is very memorable and unforgettable one. I feel loved and cared, all the time ! Especially during gathering at the surau, waiting for Maghrib and Isha' prayers. I don't feel awkward anymore nor feeling left out. It's like love is in the air, love is spreading out and transferred from heart to heart. The night's sharing were just too awesome and as noob as I am in Islam matters, I got lots of inputs and new things to discover about Islam. Awww, the feeling is just beyond amazing. 

Alhamdulillah for the feeling. 

Alhamdulillah for the love.



Yes ! A One billion question above here ! Yipeeeeee OR Arghhhhh ?! 


Yipeeee! because ;

  1. NO CLASS ! NO ASSIGNMENTS !
  2. I don't have to spend every day and night, in the study room, facing and revising A-level books. 
  3. I can sleep very late at the night, and wake up very late in the noon. Hohoho.
  4. I can watch movies happily without having to worry about undone assignments.
  5. I can play with my kitty kitten all day longgggggg.
  6. I can hangout with my homies and indulge myself to the beautiful feeling of sitting on the beach.

Arghhhhh ! because '
  1. How's my imaan would be?
  2. Too many distraction.
  3. How's my imaan would be?
  4. Too much free time, means too much time will be wasted.
  5. How's my imaan would be?
  6. Lazy ass and couch potato ALERT ! Hmmmm. 
  7. How's my imaan would be?
What a sad pathetic answer my nafs would gives.  *crying a jug*
However, I need to stay positive and always boost my spirit not only to maintain it but to increase my imaan at the same time. I must brace myself to overcome all the distractions and obstacles. Ewaaahhh. LOL. 

There's a few mutabaah 'amal that we already planned before semester break, and InsyaAllah I'll try to do it every single thing in the list. Well, there is no much thing to do actually but since I'm in the mood of a holidaaayyyyyyy, so even a couple of good deed would be hard to do, isn't it? InsyaAllah I'll try my best. I don't want to be among the unlucky ones who didn't take this golden opportunities and to have this so much free time should be spend wisely and to the fullest. 

Cause, WE LIVE TWICE ! 

We don't know when will our first life would be taken, might be few hours from now, might be tomorrow or might also be few years from now. Few years seem long enough, but actually, believe me, it's merely like a blink of an eye if we didn't start changing ourselves. Yes, Nadiahbs yes, reminder to you too !

Oh and I already listed out all the things that I'm planning to do during this semester break. Apart from studying,  I'm gonna learn how to cook and bake ! InsyaAllah. Hihi. Cause I wanna cook for my housemates next sem. :D And also some other things, secret stuff that couldn't been mentioned here Hoho.


P/S : Gonna have my first hangout session for this semester break, this Monday. Gonna have some breakfast and catch up a movie with my schoolmates. :)