You know that feeling when people always look at you as if you always be that innocent sweet little girl since forever and still is, but the truth is you are never any holier than any of your friends and even bad, you are the one with the darkest secret past that nobody knows of.
Yes.
That's me.
I am not writing this entry tonight to reveal any of my secrets or my past stories that I wished never ever happened at the first place, but well looking at the bright side, it did mould me to a person I am right now. Maybe I am never that one perfect girl ( well, who does ) but at least this path that I am taking in ( always and still in the process of becoming a better Muslimah ), is the path that I'm pretty much sure will lead me to a better ending, in shaa Allah. I never asked for any of those things that happened to me in the past, but Allah knows the best and surely He put me in that situations, made bad, humiliating things happened to me in order to give lesson to me. To purify me, I must say. :)
To think back of what had happened and why everything happened, I am truly glad that Allah has planned my journey in His very best way. As I recalled every single major life changing things that happened to me, feels like wanna cry a jug as I feel so blessed for Allah has saved me so many times for all the big sins that I would probably fall into. Alhamdulillah, for each of His cares and guidances to me.
Well, actually, I never realised all these things until this one shocking news broke that almost made my heart stop beating. Almost speechless to the disbelieve, I was numb for a second. Indeed, I feel the love of the Lord for protecting me all these years. If I wasn't being transferred from that school and called 'that thing' off, I couldn't imagine what will happen to me. How amazing every plan He has sketched for me is! O Allah, you never failed to awe me even with a slightest thing.
But who knows, by being transferred to a new school, Allah has tested me with quite a similar task but it involved a whole different story of friendship, loyalty and greed. As weak as I am, I failed the test and I was badly influenced by my Nafs and Shaytan. Astaghfirullah.
I seriously couldn't imagine what I would become if I still taking that road. The path that surely would lead me to the hell fire. All my bad deeds in the past, will I take it as a lesson-to-learn and will always be the best teacher to teach me distinguishing between a good thing and a bad one, in shaa Allah.
And till now, I am still holding to this one saying, ;
"Every pious person has a past, and every sinner has a future."
Never underestimate the power of Hidayah.
"Kun fayakun". If Allah says, Be! Be it is.
If He has set upon you to be a believer, you certainly would be one and no one has the power to reject it without He wills. And vice versa.
Indeed, Allah is the best planner.
So, think twice if you are saying that you have sinned as big as the planet Mars and Allah won't probably forgive you.
Think again.
Allah mercy will always remains and He never failed to listen to each prayer and taubah of His servants.
"Verily, Allah will not change the condition of a people until they change what is in themselves."
If you say it is hard to let go all those sins that you make, think twice and ask yourselves, how much longer do you wanna hold on to it? So, learn to let go. If you keep on holding to that one thing that means "everything" to you, you will never give yourselves the chance to experience a much better, valuable thing or event.
Yes, there's always time to change, but do remember, the time to change will definitely stop when your life have been taken away from this dunya.
And who lose at that very moment?
21 comments:
Natural remedies are deemed highly efficient, cost effective, and significantly safe to use.
- Direct vaginal contact with chemicals, dyes and perfumes.
Although the treatment has been successful for many people with
Candida, be warned that some of the side effects may include excessive vaginal discharge, discomfort and burning in the vaginal area.
Feel free to visit my web site ... yeast infection and yogurt
Chords introduce harmony into music and it is the effects created by chords
that produce the inspiration behind so much music and make it so satisfying both
to listen to and to play. Www. Piano players that struggle are the ones that don't play with passion and feeling.
Here is my website - Piano Chords And Tabs For Songs
If your tween is into paint-ball you can take everyone to play
paint-ball. I've played Nancy Drew for years and even her saccharine personality is more 3D than Lindsay or 'Linds') as she calls herself. That is the new craze in on the internet gaming, and numerous girls and teens are possessing a blast.
my homepage - low car insurance
Upon returning to the starting line, the first player must pass the sugar cube to the next teammate in line and so on.
This was zero cost because the students went to
local stores and asked for either donations and gift cards to purchase these
items. Play games all night long in keeping with the twenties theme such as various card
games and crossword puzzles.
My web-site ... h&r block
The only hurdle to accessing this is of course human limitations and the fact that the brain does not function solely as a learning
tool for the human being. At the end of each round read out the cumulative
scores. Her father, Bruce Paltrow, produced the critically acclaimed TV series that
is considered the precursor to many medical shows today, St.
Stop by my web site :: brainstormer pub quiz answers
Hi colleaguеs, how is everуthing, and what you ԁesire tо saу about this piеce of ωгіtіng, in
mу ѵieω іtѕ actuallу remarkable in supρort of me.
green coffee bean extract au - advanced green coffee bean extract reviews -
green coffee bean capsules reviews
my site; green coffee bean extract au
On Sunday nights Erin Jaimes hosts a blues jam where
anyone from Alan Haynes to Gary Clark, Jr. You must definitely be planning to make
it special and memorable by keeping a good theme, ordering the best food and choosing the best games.
The buccal cavity is a small cavity that has neither jaws nor teeth.
My site: free pub quiz answers
DJ spins out on Saturday nights. You must definitely be planning
to make it special and memorable by keeping a good theme, ordering the best food and
choosing the best games. 8.
My web page - great pub quiz names
By dividing up the party at several peoples houses you make
it easy on yourself. Unfortunately for me as
an addict, I need my crime fix. Every Halloween party that people remember later in the year
by saying things like "Do you remember so-and-so's Halloween party last year.
my web-site ... aurora hotels
Contact Kayak Fishing Fever today by calling 518-368 8332.
They can be found online as well as in many kayak shops across the country
and in sporting good stores. All these factors are important when choosing your kayak.
Here is my web page :: jc penny
The decor on the inside of the restaurant is absolutely
beautiful. I believe my exact words were "I don't want to be your dirty little secret. The decline of the East side blues scene was disheartening, but, it also gave rise to the need for a fresh start, which came in the form of the next blues-only venue, Antone's, founded by the late Clifford Antone, during the summer of 1975.
Here is my website :: great pub quiz names
If all players are wrong the murderer gets away and everyone loses.
The game was released on August 3, and is in stores now, but probably is where it will
remain, sad to say. The game would begin with them watching the
collapse of society and the outbreak of magic around the world.
My web-site :: Computer notebooks
Narrow blood vessels lie alongside the intestines of the
earthworm and they absorb the nutrients from the alimentary canal feeding the rest of the body.
You must definitely be planning to make it special and memorable by keeping a good theme, ordering the best food and choosing the best games.
Her father, Bruce Paltrow, produced the critically acclaimed TV series that is considered the
precursor to many medical shows today, St.
My blog - pub quiz amsterdam
Narrow blood vessels lie alongside the intestines
of the earthworm and they absorb the nutrients from the
alimentary canal feeding the rest of the body.
At the end of each round read out the cumulative scores.
The decline of the East side blues scene was disheartening, but, it also gave rise to the need for a fresh start, which
came in the form of the next blues-only venue, Antone's, founded by the late Clifford Antone, during the summer of 1975.
Stop by my blog post redtooth pub quiz answers
DJ spins out on Saturday nights. Local country clubs are offering trivia
fun for as little as forty dollars per couple. The buccal cavity is a small cavity that
has neither jaws nor teeth.
Here is my web page - great pub quiz names
In other words, they go against the grain of the careers their parents had.
Local country clubs are offering trivia fun for as little
as forty dollars per couple. The decline of the East side blues scene was disheartening, but,
it also gave rise to the need for a fresh start, which came
in the form of the next blues-only venue, Antone's, founded by the late Clifford Antone, during the summer of 1975.
Feel free to visit my page - free pub quiz and answers
DJ spins out on Saturday nights. Below are listed
a few popular pubs where one can chill in Mumbai.
The food is decent and the drink specials on Tuesdays include $2.
Review my web-site pub quiz amsterdam ()
In that case, this kind of question should not be taken from any show telecasted in specific country.
*Rounds table format. 8.
Feel free to visit my web site ... pub quiz anagrams
On Sunday nights Erin Jaimes hosts a blues jam where anyone
from Alan Haynes to Gary Clark, Jr. You must definitely be planning to make it
special and memorable by keeping a good theme, ordering the
best food and choosing the best games. The food is decent and the drink specials on
Tuesdays include $2.
Look into my web-site ... pub quiz austin texas
The decor on the inside of the restaurant is absolutely beautiful.
I believe my exact words were "I don't want to be your dirty little secret. The food is decent and the drink specials on Tuesdays include $2.
Feel free to visit my web blog; best pub quiz names
Post a Comment